I'm dancing again to share all of the help that can flow into this vessel to create miracles for all of those I met today waiting for testing.  All of those that have passed on before their earthly miracle have come together and added to 'me' to create a better 'we' let it flow out in ever widening and powerful ripples!!  Let it go...

I recalled this documentary that aired in November upon reading Kes's blog about Obama having taken a look at some dealings with the wolves.  I had wished to embed it.  Here is the link to the full documentary instead.  I had some mixed feelings are reactions about film.  It seems that while it covered all angles nicely and showed people working to what seems like a win win situation for the rancher and the wolf.  If misses the egoist view that the wolf is the problem.  It entirely dismisses the idea that humans have encroached too far into wild territory.  Thus there is no true problem but the human, that I can see.  What do you think?  I wonder, in the end, if we discuss this if our passions will serve anything but to share and be riled.  Is there a real 'solution'?  It seems humans keep attempting to reorganize and fix, without seeing it was never broken before we became smart and tried to assert ourselves upon it in the first place.  It is a huge example where thinking as ONE can be a very bad and dangerous thing.  We can talk ourselves into believing anything and as long as it feels good we can remain blind to aspects that may not become evident for generations.

How to
Say Goodbye
To my lover
Who never loved
Anyone
As he could not love himself
Rushing headlong
To being what he was not
Could not
Fathom
Wasted in the depths
Wanting to know
Reaching to know
Fingertips firmly slipping
Weighted feet
Stone
Left through time
Things seen blindly
Let fly
Like fluffy snow
Falls fast in winter
Blink
Gone
Will Spring come?

--elisa

For over three days now I've heard "go out and shovel down to bare grass in the yard and pray".  Things like what are you waiting for and why are you ignoring and fine keep doing what you are doing have begun to be tacked onto the end of it.  So, since someone up there felt the need to encase the car in ice so badly that there was NOTHING i could do to scrape it off and keep me stuck here--maybe preventing my most horrid death or smacking me on my thick and angry head.  I pulled the car back into the sun thinking that at 21 degrees this would do little but feeling powerless thought it worth the attempt.  Out into the yard with shovel I went, wearing jammies under mismatched sweats and an odd looking pair of shoes.  In went the shovel, insides muttered what a stupid idea quit cryin and raging.  In vehemently went the shovel as I told that voice to shut up but with more loud swearing.

It felt good to crack the ice on the top and heft the snow.  No grass,,just a thick layer of ice from before, but I had hope so, I kept digging.  It felt good to channel physical energy down thru my feet to the ground for balance and coil up my angry and move the snow with it.  I decided to make a path to the bush outside the window where I sit and then feed the birds.  I began to giggle like a loon too.  The energy from the sun felt very good.

I came back into the house to make the popcorn.  Took it back out, looked toward the car for some reason, saw it entirely ice free in the sun side anyway.  I heard God does for you what you could not do for yourself(someone else tacked on a 'ya nut'--this is a soul friend entirely too pleased with himself)  So, I went to move the car round to the other side thinking how much simpler it was to let God's sun do it all for me, only lamenting once that i should have been able to do it myself by force...some of us and I mean me are slower than others eh? 

So, I went out to take pics of Shoveling Therapy thinking of Dan's rakey stone yard.  When one doesn't have stones or grass I suppose one makes due with what is offered right under the nose.